2014 has been a different year for me, different than previous many years. It was the year which i largely spent with myself. And Moo ofcourse. But you get the point. Zack was largely absent throughout this year, and now when i think about it, living apart from him was not that difficult. The first week of March when i left him for my mother’s, i wrote him cheesy letters telling how I cant live even one day without him. In the end, turned out we lived happily without each other for seven months. It was a new kind of life, sleepless nights being the high point. I had lots of time in my hand in the last trimester, i watched long forgotten movies, listened to so many new songs, watched television, went for long, relaxed walks and ate so many old and new dishes. I gained confidence in cooking and started experimenting a lot. After coming back to Bangalore, because of the no maid situation, I learnt to manage my time very well. Handling an infant and running a house – phew, awesome experiences.
Moo. Mommyhood has made me a lot more loving. Even though she keeps me awake the whole night and screams like she is given a third degree torture, I love to see her smile in her sleep, cling to my lap like its the most comforting bed, wrap her tiny little fingers tightly around mine. She does not smile very often, but when she does, she lights up the entire room.
Being a mom has brought many changes to me. Physically, I still resemble a baby hippo, havent been able to lose the extra weight. But then again, I have stopped caring about it. I am loving my free size kurtas like anything, with no tension of not having even a single fitted attire. Shopping online for them is easy too 😀 One neighborhood aunty told me the other day, if I do not start losing weight, I will start looking like an aunty. I said I already am 😆
This year had many issues and misunderstandings with Zack. But in the end, I weigh what is more important. Today or yesterday. Invariably, ‘now’ wins. Letting go has never been more beautiful 🙂
2015 – Welcome!
P.S Taking part in the blogging marathon 2015 hosted by Seema. Hope I complete the challenge!