If someone asks you how is the day so far and you genuinely want to answer it, what is the one thing that determines the answer?
For me it is how I feel. But I don’t know what is the cause of that particular feeling. Some days I am super buoyant, there is a spring in my step and I am light on my feet. I finish off so many chores without breaking a sweat and still have energy to entertain a toddler. Even the most mundane of the tasks seem lively.
And some days without a reason or rhyme I have this sullenness within me. No matter how bright the day, how good I am at work or how yummy I cook, I just can’t feel the joy.
Today was one such day. On work days I wake up earlier than usual to avoid being in kitchen during the day. I made a lip smacking mixed vegetable stew early in the morning, unloaded the dishwasher and tidied up the kitchen before it was time for Moo to pick her lunch box and leave for school. Daycare drop off done for Boo and I sit back on my desk but the something is hanging on my head spreading a gloom. I focus on my work, get it done faster than I think and I try to divert my gloom by listening to music. Even watching some videos. Nothing works.
The good thing about such days is it doesn’t last long. But neither do the good days 😂 I have learnt to live with the up and down, enjoying the ups while telling the downs that now the only way forward is up. But I am yet to figure out what triggers it in the first place.